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...To my dearest little soul, Adam...

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Menolak sejuta kegundahan

Membuatku seperti aku

Wahai insan

Kasihku hanya buatmu

Darahku mengalir ditunjangmu

Jiwaku sentiasa dijiwamu

Wahai kasih

Tetaplah kau menatapku

Tetaplah ku mengusapmu

Tetaplah kau tercipta buat kita

Jadilah sang pencinta yang kekal

Jadilah sang pembenci yang  hancur

Carilah yang asalmu

Esok untukmu menanti

Lusa untukmu mencari

Cahaya kau dambakan

Pepohon kau tanamkan

Tetapkan ku nantikan kehadiranmu

Suatu waktu nanti di tempat yang asing

Memimpinku ke alam abadi

Bersama tiada penamatnya…

Rentetan seorang aku

Sejak kecil dimanja...dikasih...disayang...ditatang...mendapat yang terbaik tetapi tidak pula terlebih...sentiasa sederhana memberi menerima...tidak pernah berjauhan, lantas seringkali merasa hangat kasih ibu dan ayah...juga saudara...

Menjelang remaja, dididik berpijak sendiri...bertimbang rasa...menilai dengan akal...mula berjauhan demi masa hadapan...walau hati menolak...jiwa meracau...malam yang sering kesepian...berteman airmata...merindu sebuah pertalian darah yang takkan terputus...

Semakin remaja, hati bergetar...duka berganti tawa...sudah mampu berpijak sendiri...sudah boleh bertimbang rasa...akal mula menilai...pertalian terjalin...tiada lagi airmata malam...hanya senda gurau senyum simpul...jiwa baru terbentuk...rasa baru tersulam...kenangan...kenangan...kenangan...nota memori berserakan...

Awal dewasa meniti...dunia baru menanti...penuh cabaran dan dugaan...memahirkan akal...jatuh dan bangun namun masih mampu tersenyum...masih ada esok...masih ada lusa...masih ada teman...masih ada saudara...masih ada yang sayang...hari ini kalah, esok mungkin tidak...pertalian indah tersimpul...rapi dan rapi...penuh penghayatan...penuh pengembaraan...kenangan lagi...nota memori masih berserakan...

Dewasa yang indah terbentang...memulakan hidup...mengisi ruang yang kosong...memaut lengan yang meminta...mengikat sebuah pertalian...memberi dan menerima...suka dan duka memberi harmoni...melengkapi kekurangan diri...hikayat penghidupan baru terlakar...tunas kecil yang berbunga...tersenyum seisi mentari...hati terbahagi lagi...hati tersenyum lagi...mencanang kehidupan esok...masih merindu pertalian lalu...nota-nota kecil yang bertaburan...dibelek setiap satu...semuanya indah...yang pahit pun manis...

Esok bagaimana? di mana? mengutip semua nota...menyusun...menghimpun...sambil tersenyum...didakap kemas dan berbaring...melontar pandang ke atap bintang...masih indah...bintang yang berserakan tetap indah...ahhhh, simpan fikiran untuk esok...hari ini untuk ketenangan...

"yesterday is a history...tomorrow is a mystery...today is a gift...that's why it is called present..."

Kisah Anna...

Beberapa bulan lepas, saya pergi check-up Adam D di hospital dan disinilah saya bertemu Anna...seorang ibu muda yang baru sahaja melahirkan seorang cahaya mata...

Sambil menunggu giliran dipanggil untuk bertemu doktor, saya duduk di satu sudut melayan kerenah Adam D yang tersengih-sengih dalam stroller...papanya dah tertidur kat kerusi hujung sebab terlalu keletihan...kesian papa, walaupun letih masih mahu menemani kami (tanggungjawab sebenarnya hehehe)...

Anna datang sambil menghulurkan salam perkenalan...dia bertanya perihal Adam D dan saya juga bertanya perihal kedatangan dia ke hospital (masa tu dia tak bawak baby)...

Anna : Comel anak you, mata sepet ikut siapa ye?
Saya : Ikut papa dia (tersengih)...
Anna : Ooo, mata anak I bulat...bulu mata panjang...
Saya : Iya? Hmmm, mesti comel kan...
Anna : Comel...Eja datang dengan siapa?
Saya : Dengan husband...tu ha, dah tertidur kat sana...
Anna : Ooo, kesiannya (tersenyum)
Saya : Anna?
Anna : I datang sendiri, naik cab...husband kerja...
Saya : Ok la, cari rezeki untuk keluarga...
Anna : Hmmm...

Saya terdiam seketika dengan jawapan Anna yang seolah-olah ingin menyatakan sesuatu...

Anna : Waktu I pregnant dulu pun, suami malas nak hantar I check-up...pergi sendiri je...
Saya : Ye ke, tak pela, diorang kan busy...saya faham...(tak tau apa nak cakap sebenarnya)...
Anna : Suami ada motor je...kalau selalu naik motor bila pregnant, I risau jadi apa-apa...so, suami suruh naik cab je...

Saya diam dan senyum...(itu je yang mampu buat)...

Anna : Pernah dulu naik motor waktu pregnant, basah kuyup sebab hujan, lepas tu suami tak kisah langgar lubang ke, bumper ke...I yang kat belakang ni dah sakit...bila bagitahu suami, dia naik angin pulak...sedih betul masa tu...
Saya : Ye ke...hmmm, maybe suami you tengah tension masa tu tak...
Anna : Tension pun, kesian la kat I...lepas tu terus dia malas hantar, suruh I naik cab je pergi mana-mana...bukan dia nak temankan pun...

Saya diam lagi tapi masih tersenyum pada Anna...

Anna : Betul Eja, I dari dulu memang independent...bila dah ada baby pun, husband jarang nak tengok baby, sampai sekarang pun sama...I bukannya tahu apa-apa, nak pegang baby pun tak tahu...so, mertua la yang tolong jagakan baby I...nak harapkan husband, tak tahulah...kalau I cakap mesti dia marah...
Saya : Sabar je la Anna...lama-lama nanti husband you ok lah...lelaki ni, kadang-kadang diorang tension fikir macam mana nak cari rezeki untuk keluarga...kita nampak macam dia tak sayang kita, tapi sebenarnya dia terlalu sayang sampai setiap masa berfikir je...
Anna : Hmmm, harap-harap macam tulah Eja...I pun malas nak cakap dengan dia pasal ni...takkan baby sendiri pun tak nak jenguk...
Saya : I faham, really, but I believe he love both of you very much...(masa ni saya rasa itu je yang terbaik untuk bagitahu Anna)...
Anna : Harap dia berubah satu hari nanti...kadang-kadang teringin nak keluar jalan-jalan satu family, tapi kesian baby I...kalau naik motor mesti kena hujan, panas...
Saya : Takpela, bila dah besar sikit nanti, boleh la bawak baby pergi jalan-jalan...boleh naik cab kan...
Anna : Ye lah...I pun tak sabar nak tunggu dia besar...eh Eja, sorry lah tiba-tiba cerita masalah I pada you pulak...
Saya : It's ok...I tak kisah...
Anna : Ok lah Eja, I nak pergi kaunter kejap...thanks anyway...lega sikit dapat berbual...

Hmmm, Anna oh Anna...sedih, kesian and pelik pun ada...tak sangka ada jugak kes macam ni...dia pun tak kisah cerita kat siapa-siapa...mungkin dah terbeban kat dalam hati, itu yang dia terpaksa luahkan...

Betul ke husband dia macam tu? Entahlah...bagi saya, tak adil menilai dari satu sudut saja...mungkin husband dia memang tengah ada masalah...maklumlah, kehadiran orang baru dalam keluarga memerlukan kewangan yang lebih...tapi, sebagai isteri dah tentu kita memerlukan sokongan dari suami lebih-lebih lagi dari segi emosi...isteri, ibu, wanita kat luar sana mesti faham apa yang saya cakap nih...

Yang paling penting di sini, PERSEFAHAMAN...UNDERSTANDING...memahami antara satu sama lain dan sentiasa sabar...memang banyak dugaan, tapi kasih sayang melebihi segala-galanya...

"Aku terima nikahnya" itu bukan sekadar lafaz pihak lelaki sahaja...perempuan pun terikat dengan segala tanggungjawabnya...terima sekali semua kebaikan dan keburukannya...bila dah ada zuriat, lagi banyak dugaan masing-masing...masa nilah BANTU-MEMBANTU amat berguna...

Eh, dah banyak sangat pulak tulis...nanti saya sambung lagi ye...

Thanx Ben and friends!

...First and foremost...

Terima kasih la banyak-banyak untuk En.Ben sebab sanggup datang dari jauh semata-mata nak singgah sini...sorrylah, rumah tengah bersepah (konon-konon), tak sangka kamu datang awal...

Hehehe, saya berterus-terang ye...mana ada, sekadar menulis...macam En.Ben la jugak, menulis hari-hari...

Kepada kawan-kawan yang dah follow, terima kasih seadanya, saya akan follow kamu juga...kalau tak terfollow tu, tolong ingatkan saya ye ;)

Awards

Saja nak pertontonkan award yang baru dapat dari dearest sheila...actually, it's awardS ;)

Baru je nak aktif blogging tak sangka dah ada yang sudi nak tag...thanx for your support, sheila yang baik hati;)

But dear, saya ni kira budak baru la so bila dah ade ramai geng baru saya continue tag ye...tengokla berapa ramai je followerku...
(*sedih + segan*)...

Thanx buat yang sudi memfollow...i heart you guys ;)

p/s : kuatkan azam untuk berblog setiap hari...

    

Busuk...

...Apa yang busuk nih...

Hmmm, well, bukannya ada benda-benda busuk pun...saya cuma nak cerita tentang benda busuk yang tak semestinya busuk ;)

Kebanyakan orang mengalami fenomena menyukai benda-benda busuk ni...especially babies and toddler...yang saya nak cerita kat sini perihal my dearest Adam D la, siapa lagi ;)

Adam D sangat suka dengan SELIMUT BUSUK dia...tidur tak peluk mummy takpe, tapi selimut busuk mesti kena peluk...walaupun tengah belajar bertatih dua tiga langkah, selimut busuk tetap didalam genggaman (mungkin menjadi kekuatan dia)...dia tak ada pun favor mana-mana bantal or bolster, cuma selimut ni je...sebenarnya, bukanlah busuk pun (mummy dah softlankan selalu time dia tidur, bila sedar selimut dah kering)...pening jugak sebab kadang-kadang nak mandi pun dia bawak selimut dia...kalau ditarik, mesti dia tarik balik...

Yang paling tak best, dia seret selimut tu keliling rumah sampai ke dapur, kan dah jadi macam mop ;( terpaksalah mummy cuci lagi...

That's Adam D's story...my friend bagitahu, dia pernah jumpa seorang baby yang tak boleh berenggang dengan BRA mak dia...so, saya istilahkan BRA BUSUK boleh? macam mana tu, kalau kat rumah je boleh la...kalau nak gi jalan-jalan kat rumah orang macam mana ye? actually, bra tu pun bukannya busuk, cuma ada bau mak dia...**FAKTA : baby perlukan bau ibunya untuk menghilangkan stress, jadi dia akan kurang meragam**...**FAKTA NAKAL : sebenarnya, baby ke ayahnya yang tak boleh berenggang dengan bra tu** ;p


Bila difikirkan, seronok tengok kerenah babies nih terutamanya anak sendiri ;) menghiburkan hati walaupun tengah penat...

Kamu-kamu nih, ada bantal busuk?

p/s : Tak sabar nak tahu ape lagi kerenah Adam D bila dah pandai jalan sendiri nanti ;)

Buang Bayi...Lagi...

...I'm so sad and disturbed...

Paper (Kosmo) hari ini report kes buang bayi...lagi... ;(
Actually, jumpa baby kat beranda rumah seorang penduduk kampung kira-kira pukul 12.30 malam...berbalutkan sehelai selimut sahaja...isk isk isk...my oh my, kesian sangat kat baby ni...

Adorable baby...apalah yang dia tahu ;(

Apepun, hopefully baby ni mendapat kasih sayang yang sebaiknya...
Taknak terlalu emosional, mungkin ada kisah lain dari ibu bapanya...seorang ibu, walau macam mana pun, pasti sayangkan anaknya...

p/s : setiap anak adalah anugerah...

Contest "Tidur Paling Comel" by InfantiaHouse

...Join Contest "Tidur Paling Comel" by InfantiaHouse...

Stumble upon this contest ;) Any mummy would want to join this, right...

So, here's Adam D...too many pic of him, guess this might be cute ;)

Hi, I'm Adam Danial

Age : 1 years old

DOB : 29 Mar 2009

Color : Blue or Green

Best of luck, dear ;)

p/s : Mummy tau ramai lagi baby yg comel tapi Adam tetap no. 1 hehehe...

Ben Ashaari Blog

...Saya teringatkan Ben Ashaari...

...Sungguh-sungguh teringatkan kamu nih...

...Encik Ben...

Kamu tak kenal saya, tapi saya kenal kamu (sikit-sikit, tu pun bila dah tengok pic kahwin kamu, baca entri-entri kamu)...kamu kan blogger paling popular ;)

So, biar saya kenalkan diri yang bernama misseja nih...nama samaran saya misseja (*senyum simpul*)...blog saya adamummy (used to be my story, my, love, my life) nih didedikasi khas buat diri saya sendiri, diri orang yang menyayangi saya (walaupun dia tidak tahu kewujudan blog ini) dan diri orang yang ingin mengenali saya (walaupun tiada yang ingin)...saya tak kisah sebab yang penting bila Adam D dah besar dia boleh baca semua isi hati mummy dia...

Saya suka menulis...sebab itulah blog ini terwujud (ter bermaksud tanpa disengajakan)...melihatkan pada entri yang sikit walaupun blog ini mula bernafas sejak 2008, mungkin kamu fikir saya berbohong...tidak saya memang suka menulis, namun kebanyakannya hanya terlakar dikotak pemikiran...masalah utama saya (si penulis) ialah kegagalan menterjemahkan isinya di kanvas maya ini...

Adakah saya menulis seperti seorang yang baru belajar berkata-kata? jawapan saya, ya, tepat sekali...Apakah jawapan kamu, Encik Ben? **Makluman : saya selalu mengintip blog Encik Ben untuk belajar cara-cara menulis yang disukai, namun masih gagal ;) **

Tengok, saya dah kehabisan idea hmmm....terima kasih untuk Segmen Jelajah Encik Ben (saya tahu dari blog En. Ben sendiri...saya tahu blog En. Ben dari blog Edriena Hazelina)...

p/s: Saya masih teringatkan kamu (dengan harapan kamu sudi menjenguk ke sini)...

Susah Senang Mencintai Kamu

Saya berbahasa Melayu ;)

Dunia saya pada waktu dan ketika ini adalah menyendiri...

Adam D sedang nyenyak tidur di bilik dan papa tercintanya sedang menguruskan hal kerja diluar (ya, masih bekerja walaupun jam menunjukkan tepat 4.40 pagi)...

Saya seorang yang tabah dan sabar (petikan kata-kata 'kamu')...sejak dulu mencintai 'kamu', saya memang sungguh sabar...

Banyak dugaan mendatang (kerana terlalu inginkan 'kamu')... langsung saya tidak pedulikan kedukaan yang cuba menggugat...

'Kamu' juga sabar dan tabah (saya tahu)...banyak yang kamu korbankan kerana berkeras mahukan saya...

'Kamu' dulu senang (tanpa saya)...kemudian susah (bersama saya)...maafkan saya...

Saya dulu susah (tanpa 'kamu')...kemudian senang (bersama 'kamu')...terima kasih...saya terharu...

Saya sayang 'kamu'...sangat-sangat...harap 'kamu' juga begitu...

p/s: Saya sedang tunggu 'kamu' pulang, sayang...

So funny...

A woman was pregnant with triplets and they were inside of her talking amongst each other.

The first one said, " when i get out of here and grow up, i want to be a cave explorer because i want to know why it’s so dark in here."

The second one said, " when i get out of here and grow up, i want to be an aqua diver because i want to know why it’s so wet in here."

"Well," said the third one," when i get out of here and grow up, i want to be a private detective because i want to find out who that bald headed guy is that keeps coming in and out of here!"

HA HA HA...

Adam D's sleeping routine

...He sleeps like a baby...

Well, he's a baby and everything about him is cute...especially the sleeping part.

Sometimes it is easy to put him to sleep (at night) provided he's been busy the whole day playing and learning. But there are times when he's tired but refused to sleep. Here's what he'll do when i tried to make him sleep...

1. Close the door if it's open (this is important to him!!!)
2. Mess the whole room
3. Play with anything he found on the floor
4. Bubbling

And this is what i'll do...

1. Put his much loved blanket on my chest
2. Act like i'm sleeping

In like 5 - 10 minutes, he'll crawl onto my chest and lay his face (i like it very much dear...) then

rolling around on bed with his pacifier (compulsory), and ready to sleep. But before that, he'll take about a few minutes to mess the bed huh...finally, he'll fall asleep right in my arms (lovely...)...

Totally, he'll take 30 to 45 minutes to fall asleep...of course i watch the whole scene but sometimes i'll fall asleep before him :)

These are the results ;)

Mummy loves you honey ;)

Adam D's progress

He's a year now and getting more excited on everything...especially teasing his mummy (yeah, that's me!!)...when i say "don't" to something, he'll freeze, give the sweetest smile and then keep on doing what he wanna do just now...i'm mad...totally mad but yet he's so sweet and i didn't even know any better way to make him listen...of course, i did raise my voice, show my fierceness, but again, he's only 1 year old and mummy's gonna need more patient in this...glad that hubby's always by my side to assist (since adam is afraid of his dad hehehe)...

This is exactly what he'll do when i say the magic word "don't"...

Whatever it is, i enjoy every seconds nurturing my baby...he's my story, my love, my life ;)

Happy "10th months" Birthday, baby...

Mommy and daddy luvs you sooooo much, dear...you are our precious bundle...

When I'm in love...

It's so embarrassing to post something like this but I'm really in love and I need someone to hear me...

I have a man that I would forever be with in any circumstances, for better or worse and keeping ourselves attached to each other whenever someone or something trying to separate us...

I have a little hero that I would over and over again die to save him from any harsh and keeping ourselves attached to each other whenever someone or something trying to part us...

I have a bunch of caring and loving people sharing the same bloods that I would always sacrifice my life for them to have heaven and keeping ourselves attached to each others heart whenever someone or something trying to break us...

I feel like I have everything though my life is still incomplete and the journey is still far...though the destination still unknown, I'm glad that I have all the loves and hatred in my life...

Dear, I love you no matter what they say or do...
My baby, mummy loves you so much and you are the greatest gift mummy's ever have...
Mom and dad, I am always truthfully love both of you although I might not be a good daughter as anyone see it...
Brothers and sisters, all of you completes my life and make it meaningful...

p.s: I love my friends too and they are like a rainbow of my day..

Does he love me?

That's the biggest Q's in my head right now...uncertainty coming my way and life's just getting at the bottom cycle...

I am a negative thinker (I admit!!) and sometimes (the truth is, all the time) those "negativeness"
wears me out. Every time, I tried to pull everything back to normal as if nothing hurts me, but still it reflected through my gestures.

Sometimes I felt unappreciated and ignored due to lack of attention. As a matter of fact, men find it hard to please women. Women feel the same way too towards men. I did not meant intimacy but simple daily house chores routine as such. Why can't I have a little help? And why add more to my list of to-do-things?

The truth is that he does love me (I know it!!) But sometimes I have to question myself so that I can create any answer to my satisfaction. But truthfully, his love towards me is unquestionable. Maybe for him, house chores and loves are two different things, unrelated. Unfortunately for me, I see it as a combination that will toughen the relationship, which makes them correlated.

In the end, I came up with the fact that communication is crucially important. Ironically, I haven't discuss anything about this with him, so I'm still keeping things to myself (hopefully I don't get old before my age).

I don't know why I'm writing this kind of thing as now I find it annoying to read it through. Should I delete it or not? And why am I questioning?

Moral of the story : communication is important in every relationship.

p/s : we still love each other ;)

Hot tips for better baby sleep

Hello moms...here are some tips that might be useful to you and your baby...btw, I do apply most of the routines and it works well...

Swaddling - Firmly wrap your newborn for all sleeps, as this helps your baby settle quickly and stay asleep for longer. Fitted easy-wraps make effective swaddling very simple.

White Noise - Your baby enjoyed loud noise inside the womb, so she’ll settle much more quickly with ‘white noise’ rather than quiet. Try static, vacuum noise or a white noise CD. Play it louder than she is crying and leave on repeat.

Sleep routine – Use the simple feed/play/sleep routine during the day and put your baby into bed as soon as you see a tired sign so she doesn’t get over-tired. Move to a structured routine with set sleep times once your baby is about 4 months old.

Self settling - Once your baby is over 3 months, ensure she can fall asleep at bedtime without being fed or rocked to sleep. This means she will have the skills to resettle herself during the night.

Baby sleeping bags – Start using a sleeping bag once your baby is no longer swaddled, so there are no blankets to kick off or suffocate under. Getting into the sleeping bag tells your baby it’s sleep time, regardless of where she is sleeping.

Dreamfeed - Feed your baby while she is asleep at about 10pm, to ensure he has a full tummy to last through the night and he doesn’t rely on feeding to get to sleep (For babies over 3 months old).

Consistency – Babies and toddlers learn all new skills through repetition and learning to sleep is no different. So it’s essential you choose a sleep program you are comfortable with and will use consistently until your child is sleeping through the night.

Source http://www.thesleepstore.com.au/

My Daily Tips

Howdy friends...
Today, my life's a bit broken...I'm in so much tense and nothing (I'd like to say "no one") seems to be helpful ;(

Luckily I got cuddly little Adam in my arms...every time I got a broken day, I'll cuddle him and whisper in his ear that I need to be loved...he then looked at me and put up his most wonderful smile that I will die for (am I too much?)...in a blink of an eye, I'm cured and ready to continue my life :)

So, my daily tips for those "mood swingers" or those with "inabilities to appropriately channel the temper" :

Cuddle your babies or pets and ask for love. You'll be amaze of what they gonna give you next...

p.s : It's just me being emo sometimes...

adakah sudah terlewat...

Asal datang suci...
Tiada api, tiada debu, tiada warna...
Tunjang yang lembut namun tidak menyimpang...
Makam yang patuh dan lurus...

Datang sudah tercalar...
Ada api, ada debu, ada warna...
Tunjang yang kekar namun melentur...
Makamnya ingkar dan hampir tertutup...
Adakah sudah terlewat...

Bila amarah beraja...
Bila serakah bersultan...
Api semakin membara...
Cahaya pudar nian...

Bahang melecur terzahir...
Layu hati tertanam...
Tiadakah perasaan...
Tiadakah pemikiran...

Siapa sebenarnya aku...
Apa sebenarnya hakikat...
Adakah sudah terlewat...

the new chapter...

It's been a year since my last writings and I'm still in the story...surrounding by the same everlasting love...treasuring every seconds of my life...

The new chapter is always the beginning of something...it happens to everybody's life...and now i'm writing about mine...the dear of my heart...the day I discover myself so purely...the tenderness of the love within me...

Those little fingers...the smiling eyes...the most beautiful smile of him...there's no words to describe how much I'm in love with this little soul...it's the love that will never die...it's the love that I will die for...it's my blood through his veins...

It's Mohd Adam Danial...